Sex, Death & Psychedelics

An ecology of souls. Consciousness, orgasm, r/evolution, mushrooms, rivers, DMT, books, herbs, sex, birth/death ❤ Let's all get the fuck over ourselves and do some evolving, shall we?

Come. Swim with me. Cleanse the doors of perception. I’ll be your guide to the other side 💠
Aquatic crystalline full moon blessings sweet babes!

The Women’s Visionary Congress: Wisdom of the Elders & the Children of Tomorrow, new blog post just published about my experience at the WVC gathering this spring! IT WAS AS RAD AS IT SOUNDS.

KPFA's Dead to the World - Interview with Rhoney Stanley

womensvisionarycongress:

Rhoney Gissen Stanley will be speaking at the Women’s Visionary Congress, May 30th to June 1st in Petaluma, CA.

Rhoney was an assistant in the underground labs where rebel chemists made the psychedelics that energized the hippie counterculture. She will be speaking about her first book, “Owsley and Me: My LSD Family”, a love story set against the background of the psychedelic revolution of the ’60s.

To register for this year’s Congress: http://visionarycongress.org/wvc.registration.html

To learn more about the 2014 Congress and RSVP: https://www.facebook.com/events/295678353920961/?ref=22

Fire and Earth Erowid: Drug Geeks at Work

womensvisionarycongress:

An interview with Earth and Fire founders of Erowid, the internet’s go-to resource for information about psychoactive drugs, which has been serving the community for almost 20 years.
"Dying is absolutely safe" -Ram Dass

(Source: godotal, via you-are-the-universe)

Mycelia at the river last year 👆For as long as I can remember, floating on my back in water has been my favorite thing in the world. I’ve always loved swimming in lakes, rivers, ponds, and the ocean, and I’m a major bath enthusiast. My best dreams have been me floating on my back in water. I’ve wanted to experience a float tank since I saw the movie Altered States on TV as a kid, and then learned about John C. Lilly later. Today I finally get to do it! I am SO excited and will report back this afternoon!! (The Wikipedia page for John C. Lilly says “He was a researcher of the nature of consciousness using mainly isolation [float] tanks, dolphin communication, and psychedelic drugs, sometimes in combination.” AKA the raddest dude ever. No he was pretty nutty but still, he invented float tanks, which are having a huge resurgence right now. Joe Rogan has one in his house- Ultimate Dream!) 💙🍄🐬

The Spirit Weavers Gathering: Soul Activation, Social Media, Future Shock, and the Elevating Power of Intentional Community

Spirit Weavers Gathering

Originally posted at Violet Folklore

Last month I attended two gatherings on two consecutive weekends that both served to activate soul passions that had been resting dormant inside me for the last few years, and that catalyzed one another in their transformative effect on my life. The first was the Spirit Weavers Gathering in Joshua Tree, which I write about below, and the second was the Women’s Visionary Congress at the Institute of Noetic Sciences in Petaluma, which I will post about soon.

One of the aforementioned newly (re)activated passions is blogging! After years of consistent writing and building an online community around herbalism, vintage clothing, etc. I had to take some big steps away from anything “extra” and focus hard on survival for a few years. But writing has always been my truest love, and I appreciate all of you who have encouraged me to take it up again! And especially my Instagram community for reading my sometimes blog-length posts there and for being so enthusiastic about the idea of this very post here. Thank you.

Anyone purely interested in the Spirit Weavers Gathering and not at all in my personal ramblings is advised to skip the following italicized paragraphs, which are included by way of explanation of what I’ve been up to in my absence and what you can expect from me in the future…

One of the things I have been slowly building for the last year is a social media presence under the name Sex, Death, and Psychedelics. And as my Twitter bio says, it’s not just a provocative name. These are the three topics that I have been studying and sharing with friends in my personal life for years, and the things I feel are most important to now bring to a wider audience. 

The sex aspect is all about empowering women through exploring shifting cultural understandings (thanks science!) of the true nature of women’s sexuality. I focus on female desire (which is vaster than, more complex and varied than, and just as strong as men’s), orgasmic meditation, and a wider societal acceptance of non-monogamy and other alternative relationship structures for those for whom they work. I am especially interested in relationship structures where women are not subconsciously viewed as property or territory, which we still very much are even in the minds of super progressive, openly feminist men. That belief runs DEEP in the collective psyche and every woman I know has had to contend with it at some point, with most of us still dealing with it in our daily lives in small and subtle ways. And it is fucking time to change it. 

The death aspect focuses on my work as a Hospice volunteer and home funeral guide (yes, it is totally legal to care for your own deceased loved one at home after death, with different circumstances warranting different approaches and some states having slightly different laws than others), with a view toward accepting and normalizing death as a natural and even beautiful and healing aspect of human existence. As Ram Dass says, “Dying is absolutely safe.” I would add too that it is not morbid to think about death; there’s a reason the most powerfully transformative Buddhist meditation is one that includes deep contemplation of one’s own inevitable demise. 

And now let’s talk about psychedelics, because if neither of the other two words triggered you in some small or large way, this one may have. I like to start discussions with anyone who may be wary of psychedelics by looking at the actual word itself. It has come to be associated with a certain aesthetic- colorful, “trippy” rock posters or clothing. Which is unfortunate, because it calls to mind a certain period in time instead of the timelessness one experiences in a psychedelic mind state and the ancient human history of ingesting and learning from these medicines.The word itself means mind manifesting or soul manifesting- psyche & delos (from the Greek). So the meaning of the word indicates that a psychedelic substance is something that reveals the true mind or soul.

Throughout the late 40s and the 50s and 60s psychedelics were heralded as powerful tools for healing and top researchers churned out study after study which found countless positive effects when properly used, many of them funded by the government. But when the late 60s counterculture scene exploded the tide turned- fueled mostly by fear caused by erroneous & sensationalized news reports- and in 1970 they were labelled a Schedule 1 drug in America, meaning they have zero medicinal value and are highly addictive. Not only are psychedelics impossible to get physically addicted to, but their medicinal possibilities are truly endless and have been proven time & time again. Cocaine and meth, on the other hand, are categorized as Schedule 2 drugs, less dangerous and with less serious consequences if you are caught with them. In this age of cannabis legalization and related issues being in the news so often, I need not tell you that the American government’s approach to drug policy is non-sensical and based on fear instead of science.

So all of that is my disclaimer for anyone who may have been influenced by 40 years of deliberate fear-mongering on the part of the American government, designed to scare people away from the consciousness-expanding properties of these mind-manifesting substances in order to keep us under the hypnotic and mind-numbing spell of the popular culture. I have actually had very few psychedelic experiences in my life, but they have all been healing and deeply life-changing, and I’ve known since I was 16 that my truest calling in life was to share real information about their safe, intentional, and sacred use with people. These are NOT party drugs, and proper mindset & environmental setting make all the difference in what a user will experience. And now that the American and other governments are once again funding studies at top universities like Harvard, UCLA, Johns Hopkins, and NYU, with substances such as psilocybin, DMT, MDMA, and LSD for issues such as end of life anxiety in dying cancer patients, post-traumatic stress disorder in soldiers and survivors of sexual abuse, alcohol, heroin, and other detrimental drug addictions, and even adult social anxiety in autism patients, I feel less fear about being a public voice in the exploding second wave of the psychedelic movement. My post about the Women’s Visionary Congress will be my first real public foray into this arena, and I feel confident and excited about my choice to shed my fear and step into this work.

So I have the Twitter account mentioned above, where I love being able to keep up-to-date with constantly breaking news in the realms of sex, death, and psychedelics. Lots of people are working in all of these areas to bring freedom and healing to people, and it is an honor to stay connected to them. I also have a Facebook fan page where I share interesting links, personal stories, and neat images. But my favorite social media expression for the new project is my Tumblr page, where I share and reblog articles, videos, personal writings, and lots of pretty, um, psychedelic pictures :-) The About page on my Tumblr blog contains a deeper explanation of what Sex, Death & Psychedelics is all about, with links to the books and resources that have been the most influential on me.

Thanks for reading this you guys. I’d love your feedback on what you think, how you think I should interweave all of my diverse interests (drinking mushroom tea in prairies dresses?- no, I don’t mean in real life, I mean how I present things on blogs and social media. Like, is it all just too weird to try and integrate? For example, my Instagram page definitely mixes vintage clothing with psychedelic explorations and super personal stuff too, and while I’m gaining new followers every day I’m also losing people more often than I’d like), and I’d especially be interested to know what aspects of all this you’d like me to write and share more about please!

Allllll that being said, let’s move on to Spirit Weavers…

Skulls at the Spirit Weavers Gathering

There will be two types of people reading this post- those who have never heard of the Spirit Weavers Gathering and those who have. Of those in the second group there will again be two types- those who have attended one or both of the gatherings that have happened so far and those who have not. And of those in the latter group there are again two types- those who want to attend in the future and those who still don’t quite know what to make of the whole thing.

I know this because of my own experience of trying to figure out what this new cultural force was and because of the many conversations I had with women at the gathering who had undergone the same process. We talked about their initial reaction when they first heard about Spirit Weavers and about their process of figuring out what it meant to them, making peace with any confusion or insecurities they had lingering, and their final decision to get themselves there. (And I’m still being approached by women who weren’t there but who want to know just what it’s all about!)

What causes this confusion and soul-searching is the fact that the Spirit Weavers Gathering probably wouldn’t exist if not for social media and specifically the popularity of Instagram and the community that my friend Amy, Daughter of the Sun, has built up around herself there with her beautiful images and inspiring words.

Amy $ NaiaAmy, as you may know, has already proven a controversial figure in the world of social media and viral internet sharing. A few years ago a photo that her partner spontaneously took of her naked in a headstand breastfeeding her daughter exploded across cyberspace and ended up on major media outlets. Most people reacted positively, finding inspiration in her natural lifestyle, beautiful family, and fearlessness in sharing herself so fully online. But some people reacted negatively, and her Instagram account was deleted without her knowledge and was never reactivated, despite a strong campaign launched on her behalf to get Instagram to restore her account to her.

Instead, Amy started a new account and quickly gathered all her old followers back plus thousands of new ones. This is despite the fact that a few days before the recent gathering Instagram once again deleted Amy’s account without warning her. She had learned her lesson the first time and there were zero controversial images posted- no breastfeeding, no naked baby beach butts, nothing. The #savedaughterofthesun campaign was relaunched and this time Instagram restored her account quickly and without incident. It turns out that one person had reported 12 of her images (again, none of which violated any guidelines) and Instagram automatically removed her account without looking into it.

So something interesting is happening here- people are strongly drawn to Amy and find inspiration in the way way she is living and sharing her life, and yet for others her words and images trigger some form of fear or jealousy or perhaps just misunderstanding. And this same strong but divergent reaction seems to surround the Spirit Weavers Gathering as well, which Amy conceived of and has organized and directed twice now.

I realize that some people may just want a reporting of the events and my experiences at the gathering (and there is plenty of that below), but I also realize I am in a unique position to write about the greater cultural meaning of it all as both an insider and an outsider and as someone who has had mixed feelings about the gathering in the past and has spoken with many other women who have too.

I recently listened to an episode of one of my favorite podcasts Stuff To Blow Your Mind entitled Future Shock, which discussed the 1970s book by the same name that attempted to describe what happens to us as we rapidly integrate changing technologies. Technologies which, as explained by Moore’s Law, are accelerating in an exponential growth explosion which causes us to be constantly playing catch up with what is changing around us.

I was fascinated by this idea, though I’ve heard it many times before, because I could see so clearly that this future shock is partly why I had a hard time understanding what the Spirit Weavers Gathering was all about at first. The questions that many of us had, when Amy and others first started posting on Instagram and Facebook about the first gathering in the fall of 2013, were along the lines of:

What exactly is this? Would this gathering exist if Instagram didn’t exist? How does an online community become a real life community? Is it just a bunch of internet posturing? Look how pretty I am in my tribal poncho with a rainbow star swirl overhead that I spent an hour perfecting with my image editing app? Is this true spirituality? What the hell is true spirituality? Am I spiritual; am I a spirit weaver? Is the confusion I’m feeling actually jealousy? Are these chicks for real? Why am I feeling a longing to be there? Could my life ever look like that? Do their lives really look like that?

I just want to state again that, yes, I had all of these thoughts and more, but that I have also spoken with dozens of women- in real life and online, some of whom have been to the gatherings and some who haven’t- who had the very same thoughts within themselves and conversations with their friends. I’m writing this for them and for all of you who haven’t yet expressed these thoughts, especially those who really do want to attend in the future but still can’t quite put their finger on what’s holding them back. Because I want you to go! Because it was one of the best things I’ve ever done in my life and I am so glad that I was able to work through my issues and get myself there!

(Although I couldn’t have gotten there on my own and I am eternally grateful to Amy for being so gracious and generous in getting me down there at the last minute, and to Tehya, who talked through all these issues with me well before I ever thought I’d actually go and who was my ride partner for 23 total hours in the car round trip from Nevada City!)

But back to those questions. Perhaps especially the last one. Yes, their lives really do look like that. The pictures may be enhanced with image editing apps, but those are real landscapes and real people in them, with real intentions and experiences behind their captions. But also no, their lives don’t really look like that. Or rather their lives do look like that, but they look like a lot more too. Their kids throw fits, they struggle financially to make the artistic ventures they share online maybe possibly support them someday, and they (as Tehya likes to point out) all poop.

I really struggled with the online personas we present, especially on Instagram, for a while there. The perfect selfie, posted after deleting the dozens that weren’t perfect, the editing with different retro looking or layering filters and/or sparkly rainbow additions, the gushingly flattering comments made on others’ photos. I watched as my Instagram community slowly incorporated more of these practices, and I was challenged by the feelings of disquiet I felt. And yet, I did it too. I had done it too. And I knew that. I had been sharing photos of myself through my various blogs and social media accounts online for years, and I definitely pick the best ones and delete the bad ones! And I had spent hours playing with different editing apps, and in fact doing so is one of my favorite creative expressions.

I’ve come to a place where I totally accept all of these practices as a part of the rapidly changing world we live in. Instagram is currently one of the strongest ways we connect with people, and more power to those users who are trying to share beauty and inspiration with their followers. I love your selfies if they also tell your story. I love your rainbow sparkles if they add beauty to my day. I love your gushingly sweet comments if they come from your heart and strengthen our bond.

I’d also like to examine the question of jealousy. I’m fascinated by how social media effects our daily lives, especially for women. I have watched and read every serious talk or article I could find about these topics, and have discussed them at length with my friends both in real life and online. As Parul Sehgal points out in her TEDtalk An Ode To Envy- jealousy is the currency of social media. We all post the highlight reel of our lives, leaving the moments of defeat and disappointment off of social media (for the most part). And it is so easy, especially for those of us who aren’t leading lives that are true to what we want and who we are, to feel quiet jealousy instead of happy inspiration when we see people who are. I wish that any person who is unhappy with their self and/or their life would see Amy’s or anyone else’s social media accounts and immediately feel inspired to start changing their life for the better, but for many people the opposite happens and a paralyzing sort of fear and negativity take over instead. I have been there myself.

For the women I spoke with at the gathering, many had to overcome the tendency toward jealousy-induced inertia and instead choose to be positively inspired by Daughter of the Sun and others and by the Spirit Weavers Gathering. Many had to dig deep and clear out old insecurities about their own imperfect lives in order to find the courage to attend the gathering. Many had to take Brené Brown’s priceless advice and let their vulnerability be their strength as they chose to enter into conscious community with a group of beautiful and powerful women, most of them heretofore strangers.

Marianne Williamson’s famous quote comes to mind here. "Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people will not feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. As we are liberated rom our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others." Many of us see others shining and immediately recoil (who am I to be?…). But many of us also recognize this impulse to hide and stay small, and work to consciously keep it at bay and to pursue relationships, work, and other activities that allow us to shine. I am grateful for Amy and countless other women who inspire me to own my power and step fully into my light.

I certainly experienced a few fleeting moments of insecurity at the gathering. It is so easy, thanks to that constant stream of everyone’s highlight reel rolling in at us on social media all the time, to assume that everyone else has their shit together. That we are the only woman in the room (or under the desert sky) with relationship issues, debt, parenting insecurities, cellulite, addictive behavior. At one point I found myself on a blanket at dusk with a woman I know who lives in another town and whom I haven’t seen in person in years, but have kept in touch with on Instagram. She opened up to me about recent unexpected and unwanted life changes, and when I responded with my own honest vulnerability about every way in which my life is challenging she said, “I thought your life was perfect!” I responded, “What? No! And I thought yours was!”

As women, we all have to realize that no other woman’s life is perfect, and that being honest and powerfully vulnerable with one another about the truth about our lives is the only way to forge genuine relationships that truly empower one another. I cannot recommend Brene Brown’s research about shame and vulnerability enough here. It completely changed the way I live my life, share myself, and relate with other women. I just cannot bring myself to only share the pretty stuff anymore and find that I talk about my struggles more freely now than I used to, both in person and on social media. I try to be direct and honest when I share my challenges and to ask clearly for help if that’s what I am after. But usually it’s just a chance to feel better by sharing, and to make others feel better by reflecting their own struggles back to them. I don’t want to be pitied, but I don’t want to be prettied either. Sometimes reality is not pretty.

Grounded in Joshua Tree

But sometimes it is! I really appreciate how stepping outside of everyday life and entering a liminal space like the Spirit Weavers Gathering- a temporary community occupying sacred land and created with the intention of elevating and empowering the people who enter it- challenges one to step into one’s highest vibration of being. You realize quickly that to give into the insecurities will be paralyzing and will stop the flow of abundant love and genuine connection coming at you from every direction. To choose anything less than bringing your truest, realest, most beautifully imperfect self forward in this setting is choosing to shut down to the full spectrum of experience available when so many come together with the purpose of learning and activating future growth.

The Sun Sets on the Spirit Weavers Gathering

“Activation” is the word I keep coming back to when reflecting on Spirit Weavers. There was something about that desert land, that group of women, and the intention we all had to learn from one another during our few days there that activated something deep within me, re-awakened tender and true parts of my soul essence and reminded me of the magic of the multiverse and of my own ability to create the life I want by following my heart’s deepest desires. I am willing to say that I am not the only woman at the gathering who experienced this same activation.

Below I share a few of my own photos, but mostly those of some of the many amazingly inspiring women I met at the gathering (or connected with on Instagram afterward)!

Alina, baby Vera, & Alela at the Spirit Weavers Gathering

I absolutely loved meeting new friends there, but I also cherished the time spent deepening connections with women I already knew. I must admit (along the lines of things discussed above), that I was relieved when Tehya first told me that Alela & Alina- friends from Nevada City who now live elsewhere- would be there because it meant I’d know more people than just her & Amy (both of whom would be very busy as teachers and organizers)! I commend the women who journeyed to the gathering on their own without knowing a soul there. It takes courage to show up alone without knowing anyone in any group of people, and I love that women who only have this kind of positive, empowering community on Instagram were able to establish some real life connections at the gathering.

Wild Fermentation, photo by Tracy

This photo is from Tracy of Prism of Threads, looking’ sweet there in front in her rainbow poncho ;-) Front and center in the blue top is Mila, who taught a couple classes on Wild Fermentation. That’s just-made ginger sauerkraut in those jars! I took this class also and am still enjoying my purple kraut. But I’ll need to make more again very soon and am so grateful to Mila, with her never-ending smile and radiant warm kindness, for reminding me of how simple it really is to do, and how grounding of a practice it can be when done mindfully. And need I mention how the addition of rainbow sparkles made this photo that much better? Tracy is the queen of beautifully enhanced prismatic photos, as you might suspect from her shop name.

Crystal Castle, photo by Prism of Threads

Another one from Tracy, this one of the Cosmic Castle. This actually exists people. In the middle of the desert. God bless the dreamers and artists among us.

Horse, photo by Cherish

 From CherishPoo

Yeah, this also actually exists in that desert. There was a donkey too.

Beautiful Women! by _c_h_y_l_d_

 From _c_h_y_l_d_

I do not know these ladies, but I was so taken with this photo while searching through the #spiritweaversgathering images on Instagram that I asked to post it here. Such beautiful women! So grounded and present and happy. And their clothing. Let’s talk about clothing. I forget, living in Northern California, selling vintage for a living, traipsing around in folksy lace maxi dresses, that most people spend their lives clad in the mass manufactured drab garb that real jobs (damn them) and city living necessitate. Many women at the gathering talked about how fun and freeing it was to get to dress this way while they were there. Which makes me happy, but also sad that so many of us feel so constrained in our sartorial choices. I think that one of the most light-hearted and fun-filled ways that we women can empower ourselves is to dress with full creative expression- to feel like 100% ourselves in every outfit and to cast off the burden of thinking we “should” dress a certain way to please or appease others. I hope this weekend served as a catalyst for some women to begin doing just that.

Textiles, photo by Sasha

From Sasha

More beautiful clothing (and more rainbow ponchos)!

Vintage Color, Carrie's photo

 From Carrie

Sunshine faces and sweet threads everywhere you turned! Carrie, on the right, is wearing a caftan she got from my pile of vintage during the trade blanket portion of the gathering.

Desert Babes, photo by Sara

From Rotterman 

Can’t stop won’t stop with the glowing, beautifully adorned, rainbow halo’d women! Here is Sarah, Angela, Paola, and Amy (Amy’s also wearing a piece from me!). One of my favorite moments of the weekend was actually spent away from the gathering, when Tehya, her 6-year-old daughter Isa, and I journeyed to Angela’s nearby desert dwelling to feed her cat during a brief trip to the town of Joshua Tree. We were feeling pretty grimy after a few days in the wilderness and took hose showers standing outside Angela’s house under the wide desert sky. It felt amazing to be naked and cleansed surrounded by such a vast and beautiful landscape. Thanks for the water Angela! And endless, infinite, eternal thanks to Paola, who facilitated an absolutely sublime cacao ceremony, and to Sarah, who assisted her and served us all our sacred brew with such grace and beauty.

Cacao Ceremony with Paola, photo by eastmoondandelion

From eastmoondandelion

It was an honor and a truly transcendent experience to have sat in ceremony with these two women and all of the others in attendance inside this amazing yurt (which, like the Cosmic Castle, was preexisting on the land).

Peace River

From Erin

Another of my favorite classes was Erin of Active Culture Family's teachings on the Wise Woman Herbal Tradition. As with the fermentation class, it was such a lovely reminder about how simple and nourishing it is to take the time to care for ourselves and prepare plants in the tradition of generations of wise women (and men) before us. Erin is such a wise and grounded teacher and it was incredibly sweet to connect with Erin in real life after years of Instagram followings, and I will be forever grateful to her for suggesting that I connect with her friend Aemen Bell, an herbalist who had come from Woodstock, NY to teach classes on Herbs for Moontime. I never did get to take Aemen’s class (which everyone said was amazing), but I sure did end up having many heart to hearts with her.

In fact, she was sitting next to me, hours after we met, as I sobbed my eyes out to Alela’s musical performance on Saturday night. It was so unexpected but there was no fighting it, and I felt absolutely safe and understood in Aemen’s presence. Alela’s sweet baby Vera was asleep on my chest and I just had this crazy full circle moment where eight years of connections and interwoven loves and desires and dreams just came rushing at me- babies, motherhood, daughters, lovers, time and how it changes things. All connected to Alela and her songs and my past and her past and… it was very beautiful and healing. Aemen offered me a heart gem essence she had made and I took it readily, thinking it would slow my tears. Instead they increased! I love homemade medicines, especially ones that work on an energetic level, for their ability to provide exactly what is needed.

Aemen also provided what was probably my very favorite moment of the gathering, and was definitely the perfect ending as I was making my final goodbye round on Monday morning. The most oohed and aahed over piece on my trade blanket had been this dress:

Vintage Tribal Suede Crossback Dress

You can see why. I was smitten with it myself, and at least six women tried it on and said they might be back for it, but no one followed through. As I made my way up to Tracy & Tehya’s vending space (where Tracy had been kind enough to let me stash my goods in case any last minute buyers materialized) to grab my bag before heading home, Aemen suddenly appeared in front of me wearing this dress! It looked incredible on her and was one of those moments where the perfect piece of vintage finds its perfect new owner. I live for these moments my friends, and after connecting with Aemen so deeply over the weekend I could not have been more thrilled to send this dress home with her (my only regret is not getting a photo of her in it!).

Tehya & Amber Warping the Loom at the Spirit Weavers Gathering

This photo of Tehya and I warping the earth loom was taken by Elena Ray. RAINBOW PONCHO.

In N' Out Burger

And this photo of Tehya and I was taken by me at In N Out on a busy Memorial Day as we left the desert to head back to the foothills. Yes, this is a purposeful juxtaposition of the pretty photos we post of ourselves versus the not-so-pretty real life occurrences that take up most of our lives.

Integration

Another juxtaposition. The same photo featured at the beginning and the ending of this post (differently edited to showcase the tweaking I’ve been writing about here) alongside another view of the In N Out insanity we experienced mere hours after leaving the gathering. The difference was startling! As was seeing my own face in the bathroom mirror after five days without looking into one- oh yeah, that’s me! Sunburnt and with greasy hair, but so happy and elevated.

Speaking of rainbow ponchos and editing apps, I’ve been having fun playing with my Etsy photos since returning from the gathering.

Vintage Rainbow Poncho

…and enjoying using photos and even vintage pieces to tell stories. I named this cute 90s bell sleeve top A Mother’s Prayer in honor of the mamas who were in the desert with their babes at the gathering, especially the two whose children got sick there and who had to dig deep into their maternal knowing in order to make the best choices for their child in those harsh conditions.

A Mother's Prayer

Because really, REALLY, if it’s not about fun and telling our stories and layering beauty upon beauty and hoping to inspire others with what we share, then it isn’t worth doing. And this gathering. and the way it has inspired my life since. was one of the most worthwhile things I have ever done.

It Wasn't All Just A Dream

I hope to see you there next year.

This humble little post represents about .05% of the true experience of being at Spirit Weavers. Please see the website for the full class offerings, and search hashtag #spiritweaversgathering on Instagram for hundreds more gorgeous images of that beautifully fleeting community under the desert stars.